Rough Day

I'm having a kinda rough day today. There really is nothing in particular that has happened, I'm just down. Shane, Kaitlyn, and I had a good family morning and then worked in the yard, but I am just not feeling very happy. I guess this is to be expected. I just really don't like feeling like this.

I do have to tell you though, that Shane is the best daddy ever. He brought home this HUGE box for Kaitlyn to play with. He spent the morning making it into a house. This included cutting out windows and a door. They were so sweet together. Watching them color and decorate it together was priceless...Kaitlyn loves that man so much. It was so cute. What simple pleasures.

By the way, we are almost officially out of the church house. I still have a few things to get out and I need to clean, but we are pretty much moved. Maybe that has something to do with my mood. Moving is tough, and although I knew we could not stay at the church house forever, it is still really hard to leave. I think that Shane feels differently. For him, it is a lot of painful reminders. For me, it is a connection to Avery. It is the house that I spent all my time in while she was alive. I'm crying as I write this. It is the last thing for me to let go of that has to do with her. My body is all back to normal, we don't really go to the hospital anymore, the house where I was pregnant with her is empty, and now the house is gone. It's like I have now cemented moving on. The emotions are still going crazy, but the physical connections to her are starting to fade. Oh so hard.

This is all part of the process and moving on is important, but it's really hard. Please keep us all in your prayers.

Carissa